Third Person Perspective

I'm a week further down the line after discovering some pretty scary lumps on my neck and feel like I am having an outer body experience - looking in on someone else as they go through the motions.

Having also discovered a large lump on my left breast - I now have the additional worry of a mamogram this coming week - something I am not relishing the prospect of. 

I consider myself lucky to have had no major medical procedures in my life time. However, this did not prepare me well for the biopsy this week. I literally vibrated in fear at the prospect of the needle being stuck in my neck. But the anaesthetic did its job and I felt nothing other than an uncomfortable sensation as they took three samples to be sent for analysis. 

I hope this week yields good news but my instinct is nagging away at me. Let's hope it's wrong for once. 

Honey Nut Nut - It's Bath time!

I can't believe I've already been with my new mummy for two weeks! We are having so much fun together! Everyday is an adventure!

This week I discovered water and had my first bath followed by a blow dry which made me look like a total fluff ball!

I also got to hang out with two of my mum's favourite pack! I really love the small one - Ollie! He's my size and we played races! 

Next week I'm going back to the vets which means I can go out and play! First stop will be the beach!

Honey Nut Nut - My New World

Let me introduce myself because I want to tell you a story!

My name is Honey, and I am a Cavachon. I was born on the 1st April, but I am no one's fool! The minute my new mum walked in to the dirty barn I was living in with with my brothers and sisters, I knew she was the one for me! I didn't want an ordinary home because I am no ordinary dog!

I had to wait a whole week for her to come back and get me and it was the longest week EVER! She walked back in to the barn picked me up and off we went! We travelled in style on the way back to my new home - my mum's friend had a sporty black car and we raced all the other cars back! I looked out the window all the way!

My new place is a million doggy lifetimes away from where I was born! There is loads of space, loads of toys and my food is YUMMY! I have a den to sleep in, but I prefer sleeping with my mum and like to curl up on the pillow as close to my mum as I can!

I am not allowed out properly yet as I need to be given medicine to stop me getting poorly but that hasn't stopped my mum taking me out with her to see the sights and sounds! I also had my first bath this week, which has made me look like a powder puff!

I met my Grandma and Grandad this week. They both love me! I hope I get to stay with them!

Height: 21cm
Weight: 2.0 kg
This weeks achievements: First time in a car, first injection, first bath, first visit to the pub!!

My first Car Ride

My first day in my new home

My favourite toy

Hanging out on my mums bed

Having a pint at the View

Pub Life

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The Biggest High - The Biggest Low ...

It never ceases to amaze me the twists and turns that life can throw at you. And no more so than the last seven days.

Having turned forty on May 15th, I finally made the decision to realise a life time dream - to get a dog. I've never wanted children. I have known that all my life. Tried to convince myself that if one came along, the maternal instinct would kick in, but I knew it wouldn't. My love has been and always will be for animals and I had promised myself that when I hit "The Milestone" - my gift to life would be to finally commit to bringing a puppy in to my World. 

They say - it chooses you, you don't choose it and sure enough, I walked in to a barn two weeks ago and my eyes met with a little bundle of fluff, with the most adorable (and naughty) face I've ever seen. She stood aside from the others, was smaller than the others and seemed to take her time in considering walking over to me - unlike the others. And when she did, she calmly laid down on my lap - like she knew that she belonged to me.

And it was as simple as that. I committed to buy her the next day and agreed to pick her up the following weekend - I knew it would be the longest seven days ever! 

And thats when the longest week of my life, turned in to the most terrifying week of my life. While sitting having a civil drink with my best friend, I touched my neck as I do on a frequent basis and recoiled in shock as I felt a lump the size of a golf ball above my collar bone. Double taking - I asked my friend to look - hoping to confirm that I was over reacting, but knew from his face I wasn't. 

Waking up the next day, I knew that I had no option other than to get a professional opinion as over night my neck has swollen to twice the size it was the day before. Blood tests and a chest Xray were the next stop - followed by a wait to see a specialist. And three days later I found myself sat in front of a consultant, as the words "I believe you have Lymphoma and need to confirm the diagnosis so we can begin urgent treatment" came out of his mouth.

You listen to stories and see commercials of how people feel when they are told they have cancer, and it did and still does feel like I am watching someones else's story. The one overwhelming feeling I do have is that my little dog is here for a reason and that reason is to give me hope. 

I am yet to find out the final diagnosis and have no idea what is in store. But I have found over the last couple of years that writing has been a massive therapy for me, when things have gotten tough. So that is what I will do! I will write away the fear, and the uncertainty, and keep a log of my feelings, so when things are better, I can look back and truly appreciate everything that I have and be a stronger, better person for it! 

And as for my new baby - I will introduce her to the World separately! 

Let the battle begin :)

Vino Van Gogh

I It's nice to see that the marketeers at some of the big breweries have finally realised that image sells! This summer I have noticed, whilst perusing the wine section of one of the bigger super market chains, bottle after bottle of vibrant pictures, instead of the normal dull wrap we are used to. And they seem to be takin their inspiration from beach culture! Personally, I can't think of anything worse than sitting on a beach with a tepid glass of white wine. I'm more of a margarita or mojito girl! Here's a selection of my favourites!